Harini rasa terlalu lama...terlalu rindu pada anak comel di kampung. Berat dugaan dan himpitan perasaan minggu ini. Aku redha. Aku pasti akan satu perkara...dia takkan menguji kalau aku tak kuat.
Untuk hubby yang disayangi...terima kasih kerana banyak menyokong. Terasa begitu bernilai. Di saat tiada si buah hati di tepi bahu ketika tidur. Terima kasih kerana menjaga hati dan melayan segala kerenah. Minggu ini memang penuh dengan kesakitan.
Terasa suker dengan ayat seseorang...
I love Allah for giving me strength to go thru this hurdle… and I love you, husband, for being so supportive!
Comel!
kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
sepi, sepi dan sendiri
aku benci
ingin bingar
aku mau di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga
jika ku sendiri
pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang
di tembok keraton putih
kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya biar terdera
atau aku harus lari ke hutan
belok ke pantai...
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di saat waktu berhenti, kosong..
dimensi membutakan mata,
memekakkan telinga,
lalu diri menjadi hampa,
saat paradigma dunia tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka,
sadarku akan hadirMU,
mematahkan sendi2 yang tegak berdiri...
Friday, February 29, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Cerita Hijrah!
Kadang2 dalam diri kita ni kita perlu hijrah. Tak kira la...pada aku apa2 yang kita rasa kita perlu lakukan...kita ikut kata hati. Banyak perkara yang dah aku lalui, tiba masa untuk aku merubah jalan hidup aku. Aku sendiri tak tahu samaada betul atau tidak tindakan aku ni. Even suami aku sendiri kata macam tak betul...hahhaha...but he will always with me. Itu satu yang aku suka....
Hijrah...! Bukan senang untuk aku buat keputusan untuk berhenti kerja dan pulang ke kampung...yang aku tak tahu lagi macam mana corak hidup aku....kerja apa, gaji berapa...(giler duit! Ahaks!)....kadang2 gerun jugak.
Banyak sebab dan faktor yang aku fikirkan.....tuhan yang tahu...!
1. Mungkin aku akan pilih kehidupan dan perkahwinan dari kerjaya....walaupun aku tamak...aku percaya rezeki selalu ada kalau kita cari. InsyaAllah..aku akan kerja juga nanti. Bukan senang untuk menjadi seorang "aku"! Berjauhan dengan suami....berbulan2...ada baby comel yang masih kecil....yang perlukan kasih sayang...sayu hati bila balik kerja..aku hanya dengan dia...habiskan masa yang lama di rumah. Berdua sahaja! Kalau kat kampung ada ramai keluarga...buat dia tertawa...Dan bukan senang untuk aku berjauhan dari suami tanpa saudara yang boleh menyokong aku dan membantu aku dalam kesusahan.
2. Kerana mak! Mak aku selalu sakit...dan aku rasa aku boleh jaga dia kalau aku dekat dengan dia....sikit banyak aku akan buat dia tertawa. Bila dah menjadi seorang ibu...kita akan tahu bagaimana perasaan ibu kita....nak selalu dekat dengan anaknya....nak anaknya jaga dia seperti dia menjaga dia dulu....
3. Mungkin di sini bukan tempat aku. Lain kalau kita dekat dengan keluarga....keluarga akan membantu tanpa rasa ragu...tanpa kita perlu merayu....
4. Terasa pedih....banyak kenangan pahit yang aku takkan lupakan di sini....walaupun yang manis itu ada....bukan senang untuk menjadi "aku" yang jauh dari suami.
Aku harap aku buat benda yang betul. Aku harap ada sinar untuk aku di sana. Alhamdulillah....aku dapat segala yang aku impikan di sana....keluarga sendiri dan ipar duai yang selalu mengambil berat..... ibu bapa dan mertua yang baik.....rumah ( thanks AbangAmoy!)...kereta....kehidupan....harta....hanya satu....aku harap aku dapat pekerjaan kerana aku tak pandai untuk bergantung kepada suami. Aku perlukan itu....
Dhia....kita jadi org Segamat a yer.... :)
Hijrah...! Bukan senang untuk aku buat keputusan untuk berhenti kerja dan pulang ke kampung...yang aku tak tahu lagi macam mana corak hidup aku....kerja apa, gaji berapa...(giler duit! Ahaks!)....kadang2 gerun jugak.
Banyak sebab dan faktor yang aku fikirkan.....tuhan yang tahu...!
1. Mungkin aku akan pilih kehidupan dan perkahwinan dari kerjaya....walaupun aku tamak...aku percaya rezeki selalu ada kalau kita cari. InsyaAllah..aku akan kerja juga nanti. Bukan senang untuk menjadi seorang "aku"! Berjauhan dengan suami....berbulan2...ada baby comel yang masih kecil....yang perlukan kasih sayang...sayu hati bila balik kerja..aku hanya dengan dia...habiskan masa yang lama di rumah. Berdua sahaja! Kalau kat kampung ada ramai keluarga...buat dia tertawa...Dan bukan senang untuk aku berjauhan dari suami tanpa saudara yang boleh menyokong aku dan membantu aku dalam kesusahan.
2. Kerana mak! Mak aku selalu sakit...dan aku rasa aku boleh jaga dia kalau aku dekat dengan dia....sikit banyak aku akan buat dia tertawa. Bila dah menjadi seorang ibu...kita akan tahu bagaimana perasaan ibu kita....nak selalu dekat dengan anaknya....nak anaknya jaga dia seperti dia menjaga dia dulu....
3. Mungkin di sini bukan tempat aku. Lain kalau kita dekat dengan keluarga....keluarga akan membantu tanpa rasa ragu...tanpa kita perlu merayu....
4. Terasa pedih....banyak kenangan pahit yang aku takkan lupakan di sini....walaupun yang manis itu ada....bukan senang untuk menjadi "aku" yang jauh dari suami.
Aku harap aku buat benda yang betul. Aku harap ada sinar untuk aku di sana. Alhamdulillah....aku dapat segala yang aku impikan di sana....keluarga sendiri dan ipar duai yang selalu mengambil berat..... ibu bapa dan mertua yang baik.....rumah ( thanks AbangAmoy!)...kereta....kehidupan....harta....hanya satu....aku harap aku dapat pekerjaan kerana aku tak pandai untuk bergantung kepada suami. Aku perlukan itu....
Dhia....kita jadi org Segamat a yer.... :)
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